Life hits you with the hardest things to help you realize where you are and the path you have taken. This helps decide what you need to do next. Already some things are too late to be corrected your next step has already been determined by actions done before. What makes it worse is that your mind was never ready to accommodate the new.Growth they call it.

At the peak of life you have a choice to escape.There is always something present to block/hinder your progression. Sometimes you feel like giving up...
-'what else can I do?...how can I get out of this?...why did I get myself into this?'
The question still remains unanswered. Sometimes the pride consumes you and you become afraid of consultation.You're left alone to examine the pavements to where they could possibly lead and if you should just give up. So yes, again you begin to retrospect concerning what had been and what must do. The thoughts maneuver the mind and all others are forgotten. It becomes parasitic. 

Finally you realize the seed you've planted is inevitable and uncontrollable.It is impregnable.There's nothing to hold back its manifestation. No escape, no refuge. Only one clear hunt.

You breathe and eventually you take your first step of acceptance. Forcefully. Though not in complete agreement, your feet are already leading the way. No turning back now.It is done.